The Circle of Life
The next part of this story feels like a jigsaw puzzle or one of those green garden maze’s found in a Disney movie. Perspective is very different from within than above.
If hovering over this masterpiece, one wouldn’t get so lost in the blocked entrances leading to others paths. Instead, they would see the entire garden, flourished with flower beds, fountains, and resting places along the way. They would see, purpose.
The start and finish would be clear to the one looking at this maze from a higher distance but, to the person walking and living their life within this puzzle, it would be more than hard and very unnatural to have peace within these borders.
‘Tis the Circle of Life though! Or in my understanding, “God working all things together for my good..” (Romans 8:28).
The blog before this one shared how I was on my living room floor proclaiming to the Lord that I had faith the size of a cherry, much much bigger than a mustard seed! It was here in this moment, where I decided to believe God would bring healing and continued development to one of the babies in my womb.
One of the reasons why it was so easy to pray and believe for the growth of this baby, was because of words that were spoken to me three years prior to this season. Not just words but what I believe were messages from the Lord.
I’ll never forget walking into a worship audition with someone who wanted to join our worship ministry and before I could even introduce myself, I was interrupted with, “Pastor, I just saw a vision from the Lord, and you had two babies on your hips. I saw it clear as day, you walking down the isle here with twins.”
The man shook his head and apologized for the randomness of his talk, especially since this was one of our first encounters. But, he did not apologize for what he said. He asked me if I was pregnant at the time and I wasn’t. The moment passed and I smiled the conversation away, but the vision stayed in the back of my head because when he spoke it, I saw it. I saw it clear as day. It was this outer body experience as I watched a whisping shadow of myself walking down the church isles with two babies on my hips, just before a worship practice. I took a deep breath and moved on with the audition.
A few weeks later I had a similar deeper encounter. It was a Wednesday afternoon and I was setting up the stage for worship practice. Checking wires, patching, music, basically making sure we were ready to go. Just as I was in the middle of checking off my to do’s, a woman walked into the Sanctuary. She was a sweet lady, very kind and compassionate but at times a little socially awkward. It was rare for her to keep an entire conversation from start to finish without certain gestures, wording, or squirrel like moments (ha-ha). But she found me and when that happens, you stay for a while.
She looked at me without stutter, without pause, without uncertainty and said, “God woke me up at 3am to pray for you last night. He said you were having twins, a boy and a girl. He told me to pray for you so I did. I heard October and February but I don’t know what it means. All I know is that he said you were having twins so I prayed for you.”
A second later she went back to her normal way of talking, as if she didn’t even say anything to me about the twins. The subject moved on to a random thought she had and then she soon left, carelessly sipping the burger king cup in her hand, without a care in the world, leaving me at the bottom of the stage, wondering what in the heck just happened!
Little did I know she had just opened the pages to chapter 1 of this new season I was about to embark on.
From here on out, it was twins twins twins. I would walk into a store and poof twins babies, or clothing, strollers, and even travel gear would be on display. I’m not talking about baby stores either. I’m talking about normal every-day stores, boutiques, bargain, and department stores. Literally, the next day after that talk with the woman, I walked into an auction shop and sure enough, front and center on display is a huge twin stroller!
I remember walking past it with huge “side eyes” wondering if God was speaking to me. So, I went home and bid $1.50 on this $250 stroller that was on display. Saying a quick, “Lord if this is you…” prayer and a few hours later, received an email that I won the stroller!
I was “sure” this was a confirmation from the Lord so…what did Dom do? I decided to put my faith into action and started gathering baby gear! I would find high end never been used baby essentials for 90% off, surely again, this was a sign from God!
Before the end of the month the house was ready! Our second bed room was filled with a twin stroller ($1.50) changing table ($20), Dresser ($15) and someone had even given us two cribs (free!). I had saved around $800 and now there was just one thing missing! Well, technically two…babies!
Not sure if you know this but, not every newly-wed husbands dream who just got out of college, and is in his mid-twenties is to have a kid right away, let alone two!
Mason was confused. He had no intention of us rushing through the first year or two of marriage to jump into parenting. He had just waited 3 years to officially date me, and on the 4th year got down on his knee to ask for my hand in marriage. So, to hear and physically see me preparing our house for children was way too much. Even though his love for me was strong, he wanted us to enjoy time with just the two of us before adding children into the mix. I on the other hand was deluged in thoughts of having two little Masonettes running around! It was a perfect family photo for me! But we weren’t seeing eye to eye and now, I was confused.
How could God allow these words to be spoken to me, yet my husband not be in agreement with the timing? How does this circle of life match up and compare to the voice of God?
Next Blog: “The Voice of God” coming soon! Read how I break down Gods promises in this season through biblical truth!